Log
Monday 8th March 2004
The last 3 weeks must have been the most stressful few weeks of my life!
Me and steph's dad moved everything in on the 12th Feb and we got the curtains up over the weekend and stayed there from that sunday. Not even a week later i was turned into a wreck. She's left now, and i've been living on my own for almost 2 weeks, wow! already!
I'm doing good though, been really busy and getting out a lot. I even get home and enjoy being able to just relax on my own 
The bar across the street will be open soon!!
Friday 19th March 2004
Money, money, money, why is it always about the money? I realise it's a big thing, but when all is said and done does it really matter? I'm fortunate enough that I've got a lot of family and friends that can help me out if I ever need any help, but I can never see the need to stress over it. And I certainly can't see a reason for friends (how ever complicated the relationship) to argue over money issues, there is always a way out of any problem, you just need to sit back, relax and think it through.
An interesting post on 12Stone just now actually, about fate and destiny. I believe that I am in control of my life, and what happens to me. But I do also believe that what ever happens, happens and happens for a reason. The last month probably a good example of this! If I ever came to the conclusion that I was NOT in control and that all my decisions were made for me, I don't think I'd get out of bed (if it was up to me, whoa, dizzy). You can call me an atheist i suppose, maybe too scientific to believe in that sort of thing, fate, god and all that. But i don't see any problem in that.
Maybe I look at life to simply, or maybe that is a good thing. I just take things in my stride and deal with any problems that come along. I think ahead to any problems that may come my way, that gives me more time to relax and deal with them.
Do I need to put myself through any extra stress then what already comes my way? I don't think so!
Monday 22nd March 2004
Well, Steph's now told me that she has started seeing someone else.
This someone else is the person that she's been taking to work, since we had to stay at her mum and dads. I once asked her if he was a threat as he called her honey in a text or something, she laughed that off and told me not to be stupid, just as she told me not to be stupid after we broke up and i said that she'll be seeing someone within a month :rolleyes:
It's funny. It hasn't bothered me as much as i thought it would. I now feel more "over her" then i had been. Maybe he's just a rebound, could be, he only broke up with his g/f about a month and a half ago!
One thing is for sure. I will never take her back.
Monday 29th March 2004
The weekend was sort of a bust. Picked up a little near the end.
Friday i was going to be going out with a girl that i went out with a couple of weeks ago, we had a good time last time we went out. But she text me to say that she didn't have much money and that she didn't want to run into her ex up town. That's ok though, i can understand where she's coming from.
Saturday, i got some new tyres for my car, they were a little overdue! Much better now, with my new brakes and new tyres, i even enjoy driving my car now. Then i got a couple of boring things done up town. I tried shopping for some new clothes, turns out i just can't shop. I thought that i might be going down to the city for a mates birthday, but another mate had got concussion from a screwdriver and someone else wasn't available so we're gonna do it next weekend. I ended up seething with anger after i called steph (she was in london the night before with a friend, who i honestly don't trust, and she told me friday night that she wasn't sure where she was staying) as i was a little worried and i asked her where she was and she was at waynes. The "new guy".
Sunday, i was sick as a dog saturday night and was till about midday sunday (well, i thought it was midday till i got up.), i then went out for a bit of a drive, you know, wear in my new tyres went around some lanes, following the speed limits. uh ha. Then i went and saw Dawn of the Dead with JC last night, not a bad movie. Blood, gore, zombies, a little nudity and sex, violence, everything that makes a good movie.
